My Reactions on the Current State of Pokemon TCG in the PH

1. The community is still in the process of reviving itself from what it experienced in the past - the numbers/players cant be compared to the other TCGs, I will not even try to enumerate why other TCGs were big since we dont have any control on it.
2. The availability of and access to the staple card pkmn catcher - every new player I met, and if they want to play competitively, will be looking for it. Even if they had the resources, finding someone who will be willing to sell or trade it is hard. Can we request for a promo league catcher on it or is it too late?
3. The metagame in PTCG - anyone can always argue on the stability of the metagame, how worst or how better it is for each set released. I think, our metagame can be improved/changed if there will be more positive thinkers than the negative ones, discouraging words like 'the current metagame is full of EX's pokemon' are already given, no need to state it over and over. Evolutions and non-EX cards are still played, right? And you can even win without an EX on your deck. You just need to learn how to play the meta. Let's avoid to welcome new players that they need this EX and this EX, and this EX to win games. Its like requiring boxers to always have a knockout punch.
4. The league prize support - let's not compare it to other TCGs. Its a flyweight fighting against the heavyweight. We welcome more prize support.
5. The fun of playing a card game - let's not forget that we play not just to win, we play not just to be competitive, we play not just to have that reputation as the best competitive player. In one way or another, we first found this game, fun and exciting to play and get to meet new friends. Why not try to promote how fun this game was and not how worst it is compared to other TCGs.

language barrier 01

just answered a phone call from an international number...

shittt! I then twisted my tongue talking to the guy on the other line.

hayz! buti na lang. its not the call I was expecting. Si pareng paypal, kinamusta ako!

IT Designation Definition

Project Manager is a Person who thinks nine women can deliver a baby in One month.

Developer is a Person who thinks it will take 18 months to deliver a Baby.

Onsite Coordinator is one who thinks single woman can deliver nine babies in one month.

Client is the one who doesn't know why he wants a baby.

Marketing Manager is a person who thinks he can deliver a baby even if no man and woman are available.

Resource Optimization Team thinks they don’t need a man or woman; they’ll produce a child with zero resources.

Documentation Team thinks they don’t care whether the child is delivered, they’ll just document 9 months.

Quality Auditor is the person who is never happy with a delivered baby.

Tester is a person who always tells that this is not the Right baby.

HR Manager is a person who thinks that…

a Donkey can deliver a Human Baby – if given 9 Months

--from the internet

What's wrong with being just me?

Being childish is not always being immature. I feel sad to hear from you that Im both childish and immature over the things I like to do in my free time. Fighting loneliness is not an easy thing to do, you know that more than me. Sometimes, when your alone doing nothing, thinking nothing, that's when loneliness strikes and no one can help you because your on your own- all alone.

May I ask you something? Is there comes a time that you want to be with me in my world? Can you sacrifice all the things you used to have, all the things you want to be, just to be with someone you love? Because, I do, Im willing to do it.. because that was the decision, I would need to do before I started loving you. I just hope that what's left with me when that time finaly comes will not be bothering you. I hope you will not try to change it because its not cool.

I just want to keep my child soul in me, because Im sure being an adult sometimes made us cruel and unhappy over the things around us and discontented over the things we already have. I dont want to be like that.

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There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout: This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me... or leave me. Accept me - or walk away! Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision. -Stacey Charter

Never give up, ok?

It seems to me we can never give up longing and wishing while we are thoroughly alive. There are certain things we feel to be beautiful and good, and we must hunger after them. -George Eliot

I need some vacation

Madaming tumatakbo sa isip ko.. lalo na kung may sitwasyon na gusto mong kausapin yung taong espesyal sa iyo pero walang paraan para makausap mo siya.. lalo na kung minsan gusto mong malaman ang sagot sa mga tanong na hindi mo alam papano aalisin sa utak mo kasi yung taong gusto mong makausap yung makakasagot lang. Lungkot na lungkot ako ngayon, madali na akong maapektuhan ng mga pangyayari sa buhay ko. dati naman magaan lang kung aking harapin o tanggapin ang mga nangyayari sa araw araw. ngayon, parang ang bigat bigat dalhin kung may bagay na dumating sa akin sabihin man nating maliit o malaki. Pagod na ako sa kakaisip at kakaalala ng mga araw na maaaring dumating sa buhay ko. gusto ko sana na magbakasyon sa malayong lugar. gusto ko sa lugar na walang nakakakilala sa akin, tumawa man ako o umiyak walang makikialam. Para kasing wala na akong makikilalang makakaunawa sa mga kahinaan ko, sa mga pagkukulang ko at sa mga problema ko. Nakakasakit ng damdamin na ang taong inaasahan mong makakaunawa at magmamahal sa iyo, siya pa ang bibitaw at iiwas sa iyo. Mabuti sana kung hindi kami nagkasundo o nakapangakong magtutulungan at mag-aalalayan sa oras ng pagsubok. Nakakapanghinayang na maaaring isang araw, hindi na siya ang taong nakilala at nakasama mo kahapon. Natatakot ako na, isang araw, nagsasawa na siya sa aking mga kahinaan at pagkukulang. Marahil, pabigat na lang akong maituturing sa kanya. Lalo na kung nasanay na lang akong sa kanya dumaing o magsabi ng mga problema. Natatakot ako na hindi na pala niya ibig na makasama ako sa hinaharap. Nakakalungkot kasi hanggang ngayon, hindi ko alam kung kailangan pa rin niya ako. -----

maiba lang...

Gusto ko matulog at hindi na magising!

Not in good mood

Hindi ko alam bakit ang dami daming kong iniisip sa tuwing mamumulat sa umaga, kahit bago ako matulog, ang dami daming naglalaro sa utak ko. Nakakapagod, nakakalito at nakakainis. Pero, kung susumahin ko lahat lahat ito... masasabi kong malungkot din. Ewan ko ba, nahahawa na rin ako sa mga taong kayang palakihin ang maliit na problema. Kasi kung tutuusin, madali lang naman ang dinadamdam ko.

Balak kong isulat lahat ng agam agam sa buhay ko kaya naisipan kong magbalik dito sa blog. Hehe! Sa madaling salita, magpapaka-emo muna, baka sakaling lumipas ang oras at boom! wala na akong naiisip- wala nang problema.

Naisip kong isa-isahin ang mga bagay na nagpapaikot at naglalaro sa utak ko ngayon! Kaya lang, unti-unting namang lumalabo ang utak ko, nagugulo at bigla na lang nahihiyang ilagay dito. Hays, parang ang lungkot ng buhay, dapat hindi ko masyado iniisip kung ano ang mangyayari bukas o sa hinaharap. Hindi ko naman ugali mag-isip at mag-alala sa kung anong meron bukas, ganun pa man, hindi na, e. Laging nag-aalala na lang ako sa kung ano ako sa hinaharap.

Ganito pala ang pakiramdam ng walang matakbuhan, walang mahingian ng tulong o walang masabihan ng nararamdaman.
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Ganito pala magpakitang ika'y masaya at nakangiti
Ngunit sa iyong kalooban, may kirot at nagdadalamhati

Sa palagay ko kelangan na nilang magbalik

Teban...laging kulang sa oras.
Lario... laging busy, student life, love life, family, financial!
Teka... puro laro!

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Itong mga buwan na dumating, maraming nangyari sa buhay buhay. Sa ngayon, kasi, parang laging may kulang sa bawat araw na nagdaan. Na ang tanging takbuhan ko na lang upang maiwasan ang dinaramdam ay maglaro, maglaro, magtrabaho, kumain, maglaro, maglaro, maglaro... atbp.

Kaya para maiba naman, dito ko na ipagbubugtong ang nasa loob ng aking dibdib! hehehe!

Nakakainis

ang layo na nga natin sa isa't isa ganyan ka pa. hayz :/

killing myself to sleep

tonight, I never feel incomplete like this before. :(

I never know what will I do to move on from this feeling of loneliness tonight. Sometimes, I really wish you will be at my side, comfort me and let me realize that its just another ordinary day. It's hard to pretend that Im ok, when I know inside of me, there's something missing.

what I wanted was you just have to make me feel I was still a part of your everyday routine, no matter how far we are apart. I know Im beginning to be selfish for us, but I dont understand why I feel so alone lately. I cant put my mind at ease, I feel so bad.

I know I need to conclude this day of my life at the least and I pray tomorrow will be different.

I wish that sometimes you drop a goodnight kiss for me before ending your day. :(