Freelancing

in my freelancing world, i never thought that i would be ask to say what price will i want just to switch to their company, i mean to their side and work full time. huh, i was shocked at this, when i received a text about that job oppurtunity. and it was my first time be interviewed like that, i mean with that kind of question. "name your price." aside from english construction that could drain my brain, my english was really challenged when i got to meet my latest client, a foreigner.

as you know or may not know, i was a programmer working in a govt office. i was in dire need to get too busy especially weeknights and weekends. so, i was a freelancer in those times. i never thought that my search for additional income will come to a point where i consider leaving my current job. the meeting was sunday, it was yesterday, i went to my client's house (naks, client daw,o!), together with a friend of mine who referred me. there, i was presented with loads of programming work, they really need a full time ASP programmer. "i want to try their stuff but, just as a freelancer will do -get a deal, i code, you pay, then next deal." its just that my tongue will twist whenever i try to speak.

but to get a deal or not will not be a big deal for me, there's plenty of them, naman. (hehe, yabang noh?) edi balik sa freelancing life.

you! i can make your business web enabled and automated. just email me.

Sigh

Gusto ko pumunta sa lugar kung saan walang nakakakilala sa akin,

Tapos magsisimula ako muli.

Three Brothers Message

This is an appeal to someone who can be called AngelEyes.

from: Teban

i dont want to really hurt you. i really miss you but i cant be with you right now or maybe in any years time. i left all my hopes about you to God. ayokong maniwala sa mga sinasabi mong di naman dapat, di na dapat ganon. sana, maging masaya ka kung ano man ang meron ka. di na natin hawak ang mangyayari sa hinaharap. =/

from: Teka!

your comment really hurt me. please stop posting comment or rather stop reading this blog, if you will only just say things very very personal. wholesome naman sana ito. this is just a blog, a blogging comment is only needed. this is my blog, make your own and do whatever it suffice you, free naman ito noh? wag mo sanang piliting makalimutan ko ang hindi naman dapat makalimutan!

from: Lario

i will still be here. after you're gone, things change a lot. at first, i miss everything between us. i became useless. at lahat ng mga bad ending parang nangyari na yata. then, i learned my friends were still there ready to help, kahit na iniwan ko sila sa ere, dahil sa iyo. di mo nauunawaan kung ano ang difference ng friends sa loveone. hanggang ngayon naman, wala ka atang pinaniwalaan. dont know what you're trying to drive at when we got a chat in YM telling me you're missing me? tapos, i read an anonymous comment here sucking me up, and branding me xxxx. i know its you, i have visitor logs in those time of day. you can say anything all you want, but not here. im just blogging. ako pa rin ito... at eto pa rin ako.

It isn't who you are on the inside, It is what you do that defines you.

this line was from the latest batman movie, and it really caught my senses. it was when Rachel (Batman's love interest) met Bruce Wayne for the first time after seven years. then Bruce in that situation said, "Rachel, uh, this, this isnt what i am on the inside." I know why Bruce tells this, but Rachel does not. "It isn’t who you are on the inside," Rachel tells Bruce, "it is what you do that defines you."

reflecting with those lines will get you in a scene where you have more than one identity, which is true, dont you think?

like me, i cut myself into wierd identities each with their own uniqueness, but it is what i do that reveals the true me, no matter how kind and gentle stephen will be or how wierd tequila sounds to a drunk ear.

We have nothing to fear... but FEAR itself

Batman Begins is not just another film about the dark knight in a gothic realm. this is a tale that teaches us how to face your fear (at least) and use it as your strength. if i will summarize the film in one word, it is FEAR. before anything else, batman was my favorite superhero, toppling SuperMan, SpiderMan or KahitsinokaMan. =P

the film was too good as it tells us how Bruce Wayne became Batman, how he got his suit, "his toys," his attitude, and his stealthness (what i really like most). Everything is explained here.

my Greatest Fear?
hmm, to see the unseen.
why?
i dont want to just hear something move or just feel you are not alone in supposedly lonely place. just like the criminals in the latest batman film, fearing something that you dont see.
it can really make you something different.

I know we have nothing to fear (here on earth, at least), its just that we have to avoid fear to conquer are hearts. It can kill one's courage once fear exist, you know.

im not an actor, im not a star

i watched Batman Begins in GreenBelt with a friend,
and it was my first time to hang-up there.
being there was sort of a different feeling,
its the feeling that will make me sick.
hehe, it makes me feel a little inferior to everyone out there,
but tolerable as it seems to be.
"buti na lang,
meron akong culture shock absorber na kasama. hehe"
her name was "______". =P
ooops, my apologies...
but that blank line would not exist unless i left clues.
but being there, would force me to advice this,
its for someone out there who is a little like me. just
dont expect something from someone
or smile to everyone
and win a friend or two
neither make promises
nor tell truths
"ewan ko ba, basta maging normal ka.
oi, syempre nag-enjoy ako doon
lalo na't may kasama ka, hehe"
tapos maisip mo pang
napuntahan mo na yung lugar sa panaginip,
cool di ba?

Jeepney

this morning, i met a girl, just my type. well, i only saw her, dont know exactly about her or her name. but its been a month since i first saw her.

• the first scenery

last month, as i was, sometimes, late going to work, i saw a girl in type c uniform. i thought, it was type c as she was wearing white blouse, that is more like a t-shirt, and maong pants.

it was not the ray of sunlight that gives vitamin to our skin, it was her hair that made me glance at her. it was straight and silky just like in a commercial. the fact that her face complements with her eyes is another thing that made me a culprit guilty of attempting to melt an iceberg.
i saw her entering the terminal as my jeep escaped the crime scene. sigh!

• the best deserves second chances

last midsummer's morning, i woke up early and realized that it was a great time doing my new year's resolution - not to be late!

i did wake up early but ended up staring at the ceiling longer. my morning routine is always easy to remember and quick to accomplice, starting with a coffee that was used to just color the morning cup, and ending up brushing my teeth as i stare at our 30min-advance wall clock. whew! the sun is always mean to me, he sets early and rises late. it always ruin my day.
morning was the shortest time of the day, i think.

• anything that happens twice, will surely happen for the third time.

this morning, the sun was a little nicer to me. just like in the commercial, one good day coming up! but i guessed, the sun was too early for his usual 'late' time.

in the terminal, i saw the iceberg again. this time she wore a modified type c uniform, a printed white blouse and faded maong pants. luck was with me as the crowd overloaded the last jeepney to leave.

they all left, i wished, and only the two of us will remain. well, i was an ideal shy guy everytime that situation comes. and i found myself staring up in the morning sky. and then suddenly, i feel her eyes touch my presence that instant. i just wished the oil prices explode at that moment that no jeep will ever came in.
she was more brighter today than the last time i saw her. and then i noticed she move away from me, even if we were two spread-arms apart already... i wonder why? is it because of me?
whew! a jeep from nowhere just came and sigh! atleast she saw me!

she sat on the other side of the seat, where i can see her. oohhh! and looking at her, made me think i have to be early every morning. today was extraordinary.
and i will not ask for more about knowing her.

i am happy that i saw her twice, and our eyes crossed thrice.

Everything in Life is an Omen

sigh! last week, three things happened that change significantly the way i sleep. well, i still have difficulty to fall asleep each night, but that three things make me either sleep deep or sleep earlier. huh?

i know i was a member of insomniac partylist, and still i am. hehe.

here it goes... first, i won a friend, hopefully. second, i received a text message from a long lost special friend, long lost?!? third, i missed a call. and if you happen to add all their first names, jumble the letters and eliminate duplicate letters, you will get "readknow".
am i artful? este maarte? ahehe.

well, i do believe that everything that happens to your life is an omen, why? because all those events will coincide to your present and will let you remember the past as a reason why you are like the present. meaning, everything that can affect your life, bad thing or good, will sum up to your past. omen is not just a sign. you cannot predict what will happen next even if you can identify omens. but it will help you decide when in doubt.

but i believe that recognizing omen will help you know yourself. naks! omen is not just a sign, sometimes it takes the form of a friend, like mine, and sometimes it is formless as LOVE or ANGER. you can talk with them like talking to your parents, and listen to them like your heart, your mind, and even fear them like death. hmm...

i know God sometimes communicate to us through omens.

well, i do hope that getting to know omen will make me sleep a little more deeper and a little earlier.
bene, i wished that i get to know more about my latest friend, a little pikon and a little cool. i wished that i received another text from my long lost friend and treat me to a japanese restaurant and share some things about being nostalgic. and third, i also wished that i never ever missed a person, este, a call. =P