Why laughing

I dont know what to post here, I find it difficult for me to express what I feel or say my views in life nowadays.

I guess, being an ordinary guy these days is difficult. Trying to be normal, pretending to be something. I remember someone asked me if I ever got tired of starting my life over and over again. I was stunned after I heard it.

Honestly, I almost quit when I found myself making small steps again from a big fallback. Then, I ruined what I started. And then, I realized that Im back from where I started. Sigh.

I think, all my collegues laugh the first time they found out I have a blog like this; my emo moments. Love is my topic that's what they can conclude. I find it hard to agree.

Now Im just an ordinary guy looking for and dreaming for a place where I can relax, stay and forget where I came from.

im okay, ok?

sometimes when you say

"im okay"

you want someone to look you in the eyes,
hug you tight and say

"i know you're not"

Hahanap hanapin

Ngayon, masakit ang ulo ko, hayz, pakiramdam ko laging nagtatrabaho ang utak ko.