Why laughing

I dont know what to post here, I find it difficult for me to express what I feel or say my views in life nowadays.

I guess, being an ordinary guy these days is difficult. Trying to be normal, pretending to be something. I remember someone asked me if I ever got tired of starting my life over and over again. I was stunned after I heard it.

Honestly, I almost quit when I found myself making small steps again from a big fallback. Then, I ruined what I started. And then, I realized that Im back from where I started. Sigh.

I think, all my collegues laugh the first time they found out I have a blog like this; my emo moments. Love is my topic that's what they can conclude. I find it hard to agree.

Now Im just an ordinary guy looking for and dreaming for a place where I can relax, stay and forget where I came from.